Certainly inspiration rises up like the dawn,
creating continously in this sun-scorched land.
It needs rain, like the body needs oxygen.
Everything is brought to the surface,
rapidly, to deal with, to repent,
to deepen our respective walks with Adonai.
The energy within this city forces eveything
that is dirty within us to billow up, spill over,
then we are re-filled with Adonai's cleanliness,
purity, taking on His very nature.
We cannot put new wine into old wineskins,
or they will burst. He is faithful to see us to the end,
bringing us divine appointments to help us continually
fan the flame for Him, and to finish the race He has
set before us. Selah.
If we don't listen to the leading of the Beloved
there is a great price to pay.
Much time has been wasted, many drama's,
numerous heartbreaks, and millions of pieces
to have to pick up again.
Nothing is ever wasted on this journey of
becoming more like Him, but the times are short
and more intense as we draw nearer to His coming.
If we don't take the time to stop and listen to the
voice of the Bridegroom, we could easily miss it.
We are then set out on a wrong path, down a road of despair,
and we cannot blame G-d, for we are simply reaping
the fruit of our choices. Who are we serving anyway?
Are we living for Him, or for our selfish nature?
The whole life decision is based on this: Who will I serve,
Adonai (G-d), or my self? The sinful nature is in partnership
with the evil inclination, ha satan, as the Tenach states.
he is always looking for an inroad in our lives, in our behaviours,
to manifest his ugly presence through us. his biggest lie is to tell
us that we come first, "look out for number one". G-d comes first,
and in putting Him in His proper place in our lives, we will naturally
rejoice because He is in the center of our hearts, and this is a natural
overflow of His life breathing through us. One cannot help but be joyful
when G-ds spirit infills us. I don't ever want to be
separated from G-d. This is exactly where the devil wants me.
Unprotected, alienated, living for myself and my own gratification.
The devil says, "you don't need G-d, you can be G-d, don't you want
to be happy, do what you like, make your own happiness." Hogwash!
To be happy is to live for G-d, to make Him the center of your life, and
His life will naturally flow through yours. To have G-d as your foundation
on which your life rests, is to be empowered, influential, and a pure source
of His love. G-d is the ultimate love source, and He continues to fill
our vessels, as we keep them open to Him. Adonai spoke through His prophet
Isaiah and told the people that if they would come to Him for drink, they
would never be thirsty again. Yeshua when He walked the earth said the same,
and added that whoever would drink from him, rivers of living waters would
flow from him continuously. Do we want to drink from the Spring of Life?
The Spice of Life! REST.
Sleep is so underated,
yet after a refreshing sleep,
there appears a whole new perspective
on life. Renewed energy, positive outlook,
and a vision of being able to "give" again.
There comes a time in every women's life,
when there is a turning point, everything shifts,
and life begins again. This adjustment can be like
getting hit by a tractor trailer, but once recovered,
we can enter the next season of our lives with grace
and a renewed confidence in who we are!
To be able to love and accept our loved one's counsel,
and not take offense or be put off is part of this growth.
Can we love others as Adonai loves them?
This is the perspective we must aspire to.
Can we bless others, even when they feel we should act differently?
Can we remain loving, kind, compassionate, merciful, accepting, and
generous of heart?
Can we be all that Adonai has meant for us to be, and release others to
His care?
Can we hold the things of this world lightly, knowing this is not our final
destination? Can we continue to give out His love, over and over again?
This is the message of the Cross. Let's pray for one another to walk as He did.
Nose to the ground,
forced to face feelings
I'd rather not.
Pressure cooker smokin',
left stripped naked at
the cross, no where to look
but up. Earth has nothing to
offer that will remain, touching
heaven through worship,
standing alone face to face,
dying to self, preparing the way,
last days, all His roads lead to worship,
survival of the fittest!
What is our part in each encounter?
We literally are so blind to our own behaviour,
it's baffling to me. Why does it take years to see
what we have accused others of, is exactly the behaviour
we have participated in? We are so blinded to ourselves.
How it amazes me. This is a phenomina to me.
The positive thing is that some never see themselves,
and therefore, never change their ways. For this I am greatful,
to come to the awareness of my part, and my behaviour, to
make amends going forward. Selah.
Rosebuds and Babybreath
Caress a Bouquet
Of Full White Roses
Carried to Vows Spoken
From Hearts on the Beach.
Covenant Words of Spirit and Life
Lingering like the fog Settling in
and wrapping commitment
in Time Eternal,
From a Sandy Expanse
To a Champagne Toast.
How hard it is to listen to oneself,
in the quiet.
The ocean breeze envelops me,
and I remember to ...breathe...
Desiring the warmth of the sun
to bring my soul to another realm.
Resting, being, appreciating.
Thank you G-d!
Please help me out of this sinking hole,
I've passed the time, and it's not my hole!
My recovery passes before my eyes,
I see my growth and I'm mystified.
No longer willing to go back in time,
into obsession, compulsion, and insanity
of mind. This twas indeed a self-inflicted crime.
Put down, put down, put down those thoughts.
Leave it there like a flattened out moth.
Live in today, the past is gone.
No more stealing from my years,
I am free today, and delivered from all my fears.
Halleluyah!
A simple massage filled with love,
intoxicating fragrance, nourishing
and nuturing my women.
Love expressed to my soul.
My hands full of thick satan cream
embracing my feet. Signals my insides
that I am loved and fully able to meet my
own personal needs. I am in control of me,
replenished and serene, as I return to center.
No more fears of being exposed to and vunerable
to an unavailable man. Next.....
You said "yes" from the start,
with a boylike spirit.
You poured yourself out,
with no thought to a limit.
You showered me with flowers,
the cream of the crop,
always willing to give,
and never wanting to stop.
I loved you, I did, the best I was able,
in light of my cirumstances,
we couldn't be stable.
I continued to nuture our friendship
through the phone, but in spite of
my attempts, our communication broke.
The hurt and dissapointment I felt with you
not there, caused me once again to have great fear of a man
saying "he loved me", and eventually would dissapear.
I've spent my life running from it all,
now I'm writing about it all.
Major change has taken place.
Unexplainable. Willingness to embrace
the past and look at it square in the eye.
To see it for all that it was, and now is.
Transformation has occured, my freedom
has arrived and I am recovering joy!
Fear is what held me in prison,
as if my past could still harm me.
I now fully understand, that it is over,
and I am recovering remnants of joy.
Halleluyah!
Truth is peeking through, coming into fullness.
Joy bubbling from deep within, smothering the darkness
and lies of early childhood.
I am a joyful being created in the image of G-d.
Freedom has arrived, as I embrace my new life.
I am open to the world and say "yes" to possibilities.
The energy is released from the bondages of the past,
my insides screaming for joy.
Creativity unleased, gratitude is pouring out.
The world is indeed my oyster.
Impressions, shooting thoughts,
memories, integration.
Listening to healing words,
miraculous happenings.
The responsibility to live,
is G-d's gift to me.
Reclaiming my life,
the joy of freedom,
fully surrendered,
at the feet of Adonai.
Parched dry land,
waiting for the next bit of manna.
Wandering in the desert,
holding on with all that I am.
Survival, from day to day.
Keeping my worship before me.
He said, He would care for all my problems.
Contending for my Peace daily.
I was made for His Glory,
He takes pleasure in delighting me.
Learning to love myself,
as I'm called to love my neighbor.
Putting words to the suppressed emmotions,
keeping connected to my person,
the one He made to effect change,
in the world around me.
Touching my past generationally,
uncovering what He had for me,
what was mine from the beginning,
only now do I find these ancient paths.
By faith, I walk out my future here,
not knowing what is before me.
His purposes and plan unfolds itself
as I join in to His journey for me.
"No amount of water can quench the fires of love, torrents cannot drown it. If someone gave all the wealth in his house for love, he would gain only utter contempt."
Learning to live with this aching of love deep in your soul, that is never satisfied, is a hell in itself. The lover in Shir Ha Shurim, (Songs of Songs), says, "love is as strong as death, passion as cruel as Sh'ol (hell); it's flashes are flashes of fire, {as fierce as the} flame of Yah, (God). Unrequited love is a pain that never leaves you. We only learn how to live with this reality. I have found that desperately "trying" to "make it go away" is useless, it is what it is. But, oh, the creations that come forth. This wonderful creative energy that comes from it, can in some way make it all worth it. (Not really) The hope is that we can transform this love into an energy to create masterpieces for God. He is One who gives us the capability to love in such a fierce way, because He first loved us. When I love, I am reminded that I am ALIVE! Love gives us a reason to live. All things are born out of Love, just as all things die out of hatred. One creates and one destroys. We never know the impact we have had on someone's life, by being completely honest and real in who we are. Although some cannot tell us how we've effected them, we can trust that our presence in someone's life is not by chance. It is divinely set up by God for His purposes which He takes glory from. We cannot possibly see from God's literal point of view, but we can have confidence that all is for His divine intent. We all play a part, unbeknowest to us. Each one of us resounds in His majestic universe, bringing forth His beauty and His character. Simply put, when each one of us is true to who He has made us to be, we are fulfilling His plan for this Universe, for no one else could ever be who we are! Therefore, it is each of our responsibilites to live the life He has set out before us, faithfully being true to how He has fashioned us, and in this way, He will take glory from our lives, and we will be filled with His Joy because we are walking in the "fullness" of our divine destinies. Selah!
Swinging transitions, shifting shadows,
two extremes, neither resembling each other.
The challenge remains,
to live a life of spiritual disciplines.
The high of walking in the fullness,
complete freedom through absolute abandon.
Encountering so many faces and personalities,
to down time in my feminine cave.
Always baffled at the highs and lows,
diffcult to accept the realities of change.
Rest is an essential part of movement,
it cannot happen without the stillness.
God, what is it that you are getting at?
What do you want to draw out of me?
What do you want to die at your tree of suffering?
You desperately want me to know your incredible love for me!
Nothing can compare with the lessons we learn on our respective journeys.
A good one can really stick, and can save our lives. But, oh, how painful they are going through them. The more painful, the greater the lesson I believe. I wish there was another way to learn. But when we truly go through the fire, we are changed deep within, and then we become an authority through our deliverance. We then get the awesome privilege of helping others on their journey, and speaking into their lives. Our G-d is an awesome G-d. He will never leave us nor forsake us, and He ALWAYS has our best interest at heart. He's Daddy G-d, and crys when when we cry. He hurts when we hurt. He rejoices when we rejoice. He wants to spend time with us. He wants to dance with us, play with us, speak with us. He is waiting at the door of your heart, knocking, and patiently waiting for you to let Him in and take up His Holy Throne in your life. Will you respond? Will you allow Him to take control of your life, and lead you beside still waters, and speak tenderly to your heart? Will you allow him to bring peace to your soul? He is the everlasting G-d, the One and Only, the true G-d, who will always love you, forever and ever and ever, amen!
Drive out the fear! It binds up every good work prompted by creativity from the Master. "The mind is a dangerous neighborhood, gon't go there alone!" What voices are you listening to? The onslaughts are intense, and truly I am in the valley. The Kingdom of darkness is not happy, and certainly does not give up without a fight. In fact, the major artilery has been drawn, but God has the last laugh, and will conquer all of His enemies! As we approach this day of reflection, what is it that God wants to say in your life to your inner man? Are you listening? The devil's major plan is to prevent you from slowing down to hear the voice of the Master. Once we stop and rest in Him, peace like a river envelops us, and we are transformed in His presence. Here, in my world of challenges, He allows His devil to test me, in order to refine me to be more like Him. He lets me come to the end of myself, finally bursting into tears and crying out to the only One who can ever save me. I am truly in the furnace, how about you?
There comes a time in our lives when we have to deal with issue of perfectionism. No matter what the scenerio, time, place, or even generation, we are faced with our expectations, and how they do or don't line up with our present reality. It's a painful process. Some sneer us, because we are "just" people, and want to fight for our principles, while they have already accepted "the way things are". We catch the raised eyebrows, the twisted mouths, that judgemental thought of us, that says, "we expect too much, c'mon!" I personally am a principle person, and it's not easy for me to let go of things, when I just don't agree. Quite frankly, I'm tired of feeling like I'm someone's pain in their backside because I "expect" things to be done properly and appropriately. I'm tired of not being treated like I'm important as a human being, and I should just expect something that is absolutely unacceptable! How much more do we need our sleep, our rest, and healthy eating, to stand up to this nonsense, not backing down so others will think "better" of us, or be more "comfortable" around us, as if we should act like they do. I know forgiveness is 'key', but what are the lessons to be learned here? Stay strong, stay rooted in G-d, continue to be transformed by the washing of the Word for the renewal of the mind, and continue loving, always! Selah.
He comes in subtleties, slowly, but surely, he builds his case.
I have disovered that the only safe place is in the arms of my Savior.
We're in a war, and I must submit my entire being to the One who can save me.
As I move closer to my destiny, the battle has become more and more fierce.
No matter what happens to me, it all leads me to the same place, His footstool.
He is faithful and just to hide me under the shadow of His wings, while the storm
rages against me. I know it is no coincidence that I live where I do, and my growth is rapid and expedient. He is preparing me for His coming, without spot or wrinkle, as an unblemished bride. Bring it on Lord, I can't go the way I am. I love you!
"The heart is deceitful above all else", is a proverb that must be noted.
As we reflect on our lives, we need to take notice of how our hearts sprout wings
and take off, and sometimes, leave our heads behind. However, the only journey to
travel is our own. There are no shortcuts. Isn't this where the lessons are learned?
During these journeys of exploration, we also discover the limitations of our friends, and learn to extend them grace and mercy and forgiveness above of all. We're on all the same planet, (atleast on this side of the world), and so, we continue on, releasing and loving our friends where they are. I am convinced that the message is Love period, nothing added, nothing taken away. Selah.
