Does this really happen? Can we really move on?
I believe in my mind we can, but what about in our hearts?
When the heaviness comes, the weight of the clouds,
it doesn't feel as if we'll pass through this storm.
Yet, my life experience tells me, that "Joy always comes
in the morning." But it is only out of the mourning.
We can't really be real, if we haven't touched the grief,
and brought it before the Father to bring comfort to our hearts.
I'm betwixt and between. I know there is much significance
to my particular struggle, yet I don't understand it.
May I never give a "antidote scripture" to someone's pain
and heartache. May I respond in love to the heart cry of His beloved.
The only place left to go is to Daddy. It is only at His footstool
that I find peace of mind and heart. In His presence is my rest!
"My heart longs for you, in a dry and weary Land
where there is no water."
In our humanness, we long to belong. I do
long to share my heart with another.
It's in this hard place, that we can identify with
the loneliness of our Beloved Lord when He suffered.
It is true, that we will never suffer just as He did,
but we surely can know human suffering.
I find the greatest challenge can be getting totally
vulnerable before the Father. That's where my healing lays.
What am I believing about myself and others? What am
I believing about the Father's love for me?
Once again, I must press through the struggle and find
my Joy and Peace in Him, the Only One who can supply it!
The language of loneliness speaks from the deepest places.
We can know ourselves intimately by the way our bodies speak.
I never realized how true this statement is, but I am here.
I am surprised that I can learn by things I never would have imagined.
When will we let the Creator of all that we are, into our very depths?
I never knew how connected I really was until now. Praise Your name!
When is it time that we get on our faces and pour it all out to the author of life?
I know He's been waiting all along for this moment, when there is no other turn.
The answer is not in a person, but in the loving arms of Daddy, loving completely!
Temperatures rising, no control of emotions.
Surrendered at the Cross, for only He knows the future!
Leaving intellect and rationale behind.
Obstacles to get through to submission.
Knowing the end from the beginning,
trusting in the Living God! He is the only security.
We always have the choice, to "live" or stay
in what appears "safe", what a lie!
It is only in the arms of our Beloved,
that security lays. In the meantime, God give courage!
Selfishness at the Core.
So afraid of loosing oneself,
that we cannot give up ourselves
to be there for another.
This is a common phenomena,
baffling yet sad and sorrowful.
More and more I realize there
is nothing good in me, apart from God.
In our sin nature, there is only sickness.
The only way out of it, of ourselves, is
reaching into the heart of the Father,
where love is. It is in Him, that we find life.
We were made for relationships, yet
our very bent is to stay out of them,
fixed on ourselves and our desires.
This is truly a dead end!
Jesus said, "I have made ALL things new."
Every day life is a new start in Him.
There is simply nothing going on without Him.
Nothing that is of any value or significance.
We are saved by the blood of the Lamb.
It is only His sacrificial blood that He
poured out for humankind, that we have a
chance to live a new life, one of Love and Kindness.
The Scriptures say, that if anyone thinks he is
without sin, he is lying to himself and living in darkness.
The only real everlasting Joy and Hope in this life
is to place all of our trust in the One who did it all for us!
Profound creations come from waiting.
It's in the waiting, that we are most ripe
for fresh revelations and breakthroughs!
I have learned to wait, when once it was
very difficult. It's a maturing process
I believe. Much fire brings the ability to wait.
This road has not been easy, but I can surely
say I am not what I once was. I am so much
better, and yet, there is still more progress to come!
If Love is truly Love, we cannot toss it away
as if it is dispensable. We want to stop the pain,
but moving through the pain with God's help,
we can then grow into who we are destined to be
in Him! Shortcuts never bring us there. Selah.
