Sometimes we have to go through all the inner conflict;
angst, anxiety, indecision, and unsettledness, in order
to be lifted up out of it.
Now you may say that in the Kingdom of God
we should not entertain these realities, but it is exactly
in our humanness that we can also experience a great Joy!
It is only after coming through this inner struggle,
that we can appreciate the coming up out of!
The relief as we thank God for bringing us through the eye of the storm.
I find the greatest struggle to be self-acceptance! To extend
that much needed grace to myself when I fall short of achieving
that which I so badly want. God is merciful!
If we could see the battle in the heavenlies for our souls
we would experience an empowerment in the Lord our God.
Seeing with spiritual eyes enables us to fight for our lives
and to apprehend every material and spiritual blessing from above!
We need to ask our God for a "bird's eye view" of any particular
situation/s that have tried to beat us down and steal from us.
When we receive revelation concerning this question, we can laugh
because we see once again, it is an assault from the pit of hell.
We have been empowered from on high to stand fast in the face
of our enemies, take our ground, both physical and spiritual,
and hold fast to the King of the Universe, Yeshua of Nazareth.
We shall see Him smite our enemies and fight for us! Selah.
God knows all of our sorrow, our pain and suffering.
His spirit within us grieves as we walk with Him through the fire.
He knows the beginning from the end, and He see the luster of
our jewels we are acquiring in Heaven.
Five years ago, my friend told me that God had brought me here
to kill me. Needless to say, I didn't have much appreciation for
that comment. However, it is true. The maturity that I have
come into here in my new life is simply beyond an earthly understanding.
How can we lift up others if we haven't experienced similar sorrows?
It is the way of the cross. It is certainly a deadening to our selves.
Selfishness is a sickness, it pushes all others out, and it is cancerous.
Living for oneself is a dead end, but living for God is "newness of life!"
What the enemy is after is our hearts.
If he can devour that which God has placed within in us
we truly become useless in regard to depositing who we
are in this world that so desperately needs each of our input
for healing sake!
It breaks my heart that so many are closed off, shut down, and
simply on automatic pilot moving through their "lives."
I was one of them. But, when I met Yeshua (Jesus), it was the
beginning of healing and restoration for me! I now realize
that my heart is of the greatest value to my Father in Heaven!
My greatest gift from Abba is the gift of encouragement.
No wonder my adversary would try to beat me down with discouragement
so that I could not have encouragement to give to His Beloved bride, His
people! I have overcome as I continue to hide myself under the shelter
of His wings. If we don't respond to the heart of God, we shall be dead!
Beloved, He has not called you to "fit in", but to come out and shine your
light for all the world to see! You are His Glory as you come into the fullness
of who you were made to be. Throw off your shackles and declare the
goodness of the Lord Almighty! He is a faithful to the end! Selah.
To love in the face of rejection isn't easy.
We are commanded by the Son of God to
"love our enemies, pray for those who persecute
us, and bless those who curse us."
What I have discovered as a child of God
is that I can "reject" the rejection. I do not
have to "accept" this or take it into my heart.
That is the plan of the evil one. To break my heart.
As a women, nurturing is innate for me.
Because that is a truth, it is also a truth that the
adversary wants to crush my heart, harden it,
make it callous to people, so that I will stop loving.
"I was made for Love" is my truth for my life.
I am called to be a "leaky vessel" for the glory of God!
This world needs my love that comes from the throne of Grace.
Heavenly pure love that comes down from heaven is healing.
We are called to be glory carriers. To rain down Papa God's
love on our neighbors, families, and ourselves. We must
learn self-respect. We must be led only by the spirit of God
and not co-dependent behaviors we grew up. We must be true to God!
Some of our questions will never be answered here on this earth.
Life is so very difficult to accept sometimes.
Can we love imperfection? What does it really mean to love?
It is so much easier to see the faults and weaknesses in others
instead of seeing our own short-comings.
Will the emptiness ever leave? I still say, "It is better to have loved
than not to have have loved at all!"
