The British are not the only ones who have exclusive rights to this word.
I found myself saying this tonight. I'm expended, and if I don't recharge
with my God, I will be a shell of a person walking around. God forbid.
It is so hard to stop the pace of this city in my life. To steal away with God
is so difficult, and yet that's where the treasures are. He is waiting for me.
I can't even think, as it's all piling up, and I'm getting drained from all the running.
I am torn between two different lives. The life I live here currently, and taking a time out to go away with God to let Him speak to me in quiet serenity.
What compels me to keep going, and not permit myself to get away with my God?
Many ships have sailed to these waters,
to find their treasures of gold.
This is the sole place where it may be found.
It it God's place.
One must leave all, and embrace God's way,
to find these treasures. For a human being,
it is a major overhaul, a divine transformation.
It is a dying to oneself.
There is no other place, on the face of the earth,
where one becomes a completely different person,
than when they set out. Entering in to the furnace
of gold, we are completely changed, day by day. Selah.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for preserving me for yourself. Thank you for my freedom.
I look around, and I feel so greatful that I am unhindered to do your work
and soar with you, no holds barred. You can take me to the furthest point
of the earth, if you so desire, I am Yours! I've been there, and done that,
and I have experienced many things, and the reminder that I am no longer
bound and limited in my choices, is such a gift to me. You do indeed bring
beauty from ashes, and your faithfulness is beyond searching out. You
have carried me through many difficult times, and I am still here. My heart
is a heart of love, and it could have gone another way. But, you Lord have
preserved my heart, you kept it soft to love you and to love others.
Help me make right choices for my life, right friends, right confidants. Please
keep the wrong people far from me. Keep me safe under the shadow of
your wings. I recommit my life to you this day, and am eternally greatful
for your love for me, and your sovereign plan for my life. No one can take
this plan from you, for Your plan for my life is sure and sound, and I wait
upon you for my guidance this day, for where you would have me to walk and
and share your love, mercy, and grace to your people. I surrender my life
once again to you this day. Would you lead and guide my footsteps so they
would bring you all the honor, all the glory, and all the praise this day! Selah.
Adonai, I thank you that I am found trustworthy and valuable to others that they
would pour out their hearts to me, knowing that their treasures are guarded in
safety. Do we realize just how blessed we are that others in our inner circles
would trust us with their jewels? Do we take this for granted, or do we sometimes
stop and reflect how very privileged we are? This is a tremendous honor to be viewed in this way by our close friends and family. We serve a God who is completely trustworthy in every way, and if we follow Him daily, He will do His most
perfect work in and through us. We just need to say, "Yes!" Every day has cares of it's own Yeshua (Jesus) said in the Gospels, so why don't we take our lives one day at a time? Sometimes, a moment at a time? An important point to make is that if our confidants are opening their souls to us, we need to NOT put ourselves in a position of analyzing their psyche, where they feel as if they need to defend their heart. Let's not put them in this position. Again, we are privileged to even hear what's in their heart, so let's listen attentively, and be a loving support, one who undergirds, and doesn't judge their reactions in their heart, but supports and listens, and lets them know, first and foremost, they are completely accepted and loved by us, and we are always a safe place for them! Selah!
At what point, do we know it's time to cut the cord?
A noble heart of desiring to evolve, heal, and grow to the upmost,
is always good, but when do we know, when it's detrimental to
our health to stay in a situation? We must be careful of our intellect,
and our ananlytic selves. The Spirit is something quite different.
Although we are aware that God gives us constant opportunities
to be healed of our woundedness, we must be so discerning as to
the time to severe ourselves from a bad situation. I have come to
the conclusion that my time is here, and I must do this now. Not
without much pain and heartache. The scriptures tell us, never to
put our trust in man, he will always dissapoint us. But we cannot
have real relationships if we don't. We just have to understand that
man is human, and severly flawed, and to know we will be let down
and dissapointed at times. We are never to put man on a pedestal or
put an expectation on him that he will 'always' do the right thing, he
will not. When we are betrayed by our friends, it's very painful.
We must always forgive them and release them to God. Not an easy
endeavor, but it can be done, only through the grace of God in our
lives. Yeshua (Jesus) said, "Bless your enemies". After all it's not
necessarily the person who is the enemy, but the spirit they're
cooperating with. We make choices all the time. If we aren't careful
we can come into agreement with a lying spirit, and not necessarily know
it. We just think we've changed our minds and taken another perspective
or stanze, when in fact, we may have just partnered with the enemy.
After having said all this, I quote an expression that is very true:
"Time reveals all". Time reveals if a friendship is really authentic, or if
it never was in the first place. Atleast I know what the behaviour is I am
to take, and what I am to do, according to God's way of doing things.
Leave, forgive, and release to God. Selah.
"MAKE ME AN INSTRUMENT OF YOUR PEACE"
As the vice squeezes in on me,
more and more, I can either jump ship,
and swim away, or stay in the brutal
uncomfortableness and let God change me.
I am enduring, I've chosen to.
I know that as I seek Him, He will reveal all
that I need to know and grow in.
Selah.
What are you seeking in me? What is it that you are desiring to bring out in me?
What do you want me healed from Lord? Running out of a situation is not the answer. I know I'll keep going around this mountain untill I get it right. The crucible indeed! The answer lies only in in spending quality time with You. Seeking Your face and Your will. Waiting on You to reveal the truth that You are always faithful
to share with me. You are the God of truth! There is nothing false in You. Not so with the Prince of this World. There is no truth in him. Oh, lover of my soul, draw me near to You, that I can learn the secret things from You, in our secret place, only room enough for two.
