Nothing is wasted in this furnace of God.
Life is expedited here, five years of growth
in one. "ALL things work together for good
to those who love God and are called according
to His purpose."
I believe the most important thing to God
is relationships. I realize that the enemy
hates reconciliation, and will do everything
to prevent that between us. BUT GOD!
It is so easy to make ministry, life, work,
chores, duties, more important than people,
and we can get caught up, and not realize we
have turned priorites upside down. People
is what God cares about!
I was made for "such a time as this." I am
exactly where I am supposed to be according
to the plan and purposes of God. I am honored,
privileged, and Joyful, that God would choose
me to carry His presence, His precious anointing
to His people. They will always be His! Selah.
We cannot disregard them!
When we have checks inside,
we must heed them. There is
a huge price to pay when we don't.
It's no small matter, when these arise
inside of us. Nothing to be shlugged off.
Little checks become huge problems,
this is why we must pay close attention.
Lessons are hard and painful, but we
must learn from them, if we don't
want to relive the same experience
over and over again. Selah.
Although we know what is right,
we can still have feelings that have
their own life. For us to think that
God doesn't care about them, if they
are not in line with His will, is a fallacy.
Feelings are exactly that. They show
that we are alive and well, connected
to our insides. The scarey thing is when
we are shut down, feel nothing, think
nothing, and do nothing. This is certainly
not a healthy place.
God is able to drag the sorriest soul out
of his pit, and bring him out into a spacious
place. There is nothing that is beyond God's
forgiveness, because He declared that His Son's
blood has made restitution for ALL of our sins,
past, present, and future. We only need to
receive this free gift from Him in Yeshua the
Messiah, sent by God Himself. Selah.
We get to a place, where this strong person
rising up within us says, "sorry", I will not
be a victim anymore! Many people in their
defense mechanisms want to intimidate us,
and want us to suffer if we don't respond
the way they hoped we would. We have been
guilty of it too.
I am so greatful that I have grown so much
where I can see where I was once intimidated
this way, but not anymore. I will not be
pushed around, manipulated, nor made to
feel guilty for not being the perfect responder.
I am not perfect, only God is.
How liberating to put the devil under my feet,
and stand up for myself, and put the enemy down,
and not fall into the same "familiar" patterns of old.
I recognize my healing and my overcoming,
and it's a Joy to see that no one can intimidate me
unless I allow it. Selah.
He's not a God of "what-if's."
He is clear, strategic, and intentional.
If ever we find ourselves thinking,
"but I don't want to miss God", yet
don't have a complete clearance in our spirit
to go forth and yet the voice of fear says to us,
"but what if I miss God?" I don't believe
this is the voice of God. It's the voice of fear,
and fear is not the how God speaks in this context.
God speaks in shalom, although His voice is often
the quieter voice we hear inside, He does infact
speak clearly. We may have to tune out the
onslaughts of all the other voices in order to discern
His. God speaks from within rising up from our inner
man, from our loins. The devil/world comes at our
thoughts from the outside into our head.
The precious voice of His spirit will lead us into all truth.
Fear should never be a motivator, unless it is the FEAR
of the Lord, not a worldy intimidating voice that will
move us in the wrong direction. Manipulation is in
fact a spirit from the pit, and it's mother is intimidation,
this is not from God. It can be difficult to discern at times.
That's why the Scriptures say, "let the shalom of God
be your decision maker."
I pray one day, I will get to the point where I will
not go, unless I hear, "Go", very clearly. Otherwise,
I'm not going. If we hear the voice, "but what-if I miss it?"
disgard it, it's not from God. God won't let His faithful ones
ever miss it. He does not desire to withold anything from
His loved ones, ever. It is His desire that we are clear and
sure of His will. Granted, there are many times that we
don't know for sure, and we must make a decision, such is life.
However, depending on the size of the decision and what is
at stake, should decide whether it's wise to move at all,
because of the consequences we can suffer if it's a wrong
choice. But if fear of "missing it" is the reason why
you move forward, without having heard a clear "yes",
there may be high price to pay personally, and I believe
God would like to spare us the harm, or danger we could not see
awaiting us in having made this "unclear" decision.
We can always refer back to this very wise scripture,
"Let the shalom of God be your decision maker." Selah.
I've tryed the other side,
fish out of water.
Stunned at the majority.
Such a huge decision to cross.
Now it is done.
Concerned I would miss "it".
Looking back, what a bust.
What is the moral of this story?
If there is no answer from above,
perhaps the answer is to pass.
Or fast and press in for a breakthrough.
Cannot allow confusion to come alive.
We're in a war, the devil is patient.
We must understand the strategy of our
opponent. We must cover ourselves at
all costs. I know who I am, and I need to
rejoice in that knowledge. If I had to
choose all over again, I doubt I would have
the same answer. But life moves forward,
not back. Selah.
Acceptance for being who we are is crucial.
It's accentuated to me today, as I had to
consider whether I was willing to hide my identity,
even to share the Love of God.
Generations of persecution for my very heritage
is alive and well today. As much as I want to do
what I was made to do, I cannot compromise living
in the light and in the fullness of who I am.
I suddenly realize how 'free' I really am living
in my nation, as the thought of crossing the line
in disguise, denying my very substance and bloodline
may have been a reality, confirming the need for MY country.
